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Date:2012-01-12 04:25
Subject:Week 1(ish) Update

Just a quickie update.

I've been pretty successful this last week, I think. No binges, minimized stress (though there have been some down moments for sure), and best of all, weight loss!

I lost 7lbs since my last post, leaving me with 119lbs left to go.  I guess that's the one advantage of being fat- the weight falls off quicker at first.

I have been pretty bad on the exercise front other than a few walks of 2 miles or so. My shoulder is acting up again but the only way to really fix the issue is to lose weight, so I think I'll be holding off on any serious workouts until I'm down enough that this issue goes away.  My sleep schedule is still messed up between the depression and the pain, with me sleeping 4 hours or so between 9am and 2pm most days.  My energy levels aren't great, but I'm getting work done and not berating myself too much, so that's a plus.

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Date:2012-01-04 18:15
Subject:Oh Hai

I haven't posted to this journal in forever. Heh.  Mostly when I do journal now, I blog about writing and I have a separate blog for that.

But I have LiveJournal nostalgia. I mean, I've been keeping this thing for like what? Almost 10 years (will be 10 in June of this year, eek).

I put up my writing goals on my writing blog.  But here are my non-writing goals, which I'll post about on this blog in an attempt to keep myself on task.

Goal 1: lose 126lbs this year.  This will put me right at the lower middle of a healthy bmi and at a weight I can live with. 

Goal 2: get back in shape. I can still walk a couple miles without wanting to die, but that's about as good as I can manage these days. Part of the issue is that with my weight so high, I am suffering a lot of the injuries, aches, and pains that being fat brings on my poor body.  I want to be fit enough to climb again by next winter and fit enough to go hiking this summer.

Goal 3: make positive changes in my thinking to help me overcome this stupid eating disorder and get control back.  I plan to do this by making an effort to surround myself with healthy friendships, with self-talk, and by communicating to the people in my life what I need from them to assist me.

I'll try to do weekly posts with my progress and stuff. I'm also planning to talk frankly about my eating disorder again, because sometimes I just need to vent and I also feel that people hear a lot about anorexia but a lot of the sufferers of COE and BED don't talk about it (because hey, you are fat, so just stop eating, right?). 

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Date:2011-05-16 03:33
Subject:My Clarion Project

Hey, for those few of you who don't read my writing blog, I have a Kickstarter project to help fund Clarion. I'd be thrilled if people could send the link around and help boost my signal. Thanks!

Here's the link: Souvenirs From Other Worlds
Anyone who donates gets cool stuff (like an original book etc) as a reward.  Hopefully all together we can help make this happen :)

Thank you!

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Date:2011-05-12 20:51
Subject:Happy Birthday to Me

am 30.

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Date:2011-03-21 16:24
Subject:Final Squee! Clarion!

I got into Clarion (UCSD). That is all.


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Date:2011-03-06 18:55

Took the plunge. Novel is posted for sale. Doom!
Details are here:

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Date:2011-03-01 19:53
Subject:Another Sale

For the like two of you who don't read my writing blog instead:

"Love at the Corner of Time and Space" sold to Daily Science Fiction. :)

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Date:2011-01-07 13:06
Subject:Listen to Writing List

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Date:2011-01-01 06:00
Subject:New Year, Forever Resolution

In just over 5 months, I turn 30.

I want my thirties to be happier and more stable than my twenties. And I want to break up with my compulsive over-eating disorder forever. I don't want any more "last" binges or "tomorrow I'll starts". I have an addiction and it's destroying my life.

I am 5'5 inches tall with a small/medium frame. Today I weigh 221.4lbs which is .6lbs under my highest weight ever, which was sometime about a week ago. I'm done hating myself and wishing I would just have a heart attack and die so I wouldn't have to look in the mirror tomorrow.

This is the year I break up with my addiction. Am I terrified? Yeah.I miss being thin and comfortable and feeling strong, but it was scary, too. People around me aren't always supportive or nice when I'm losing weight or trying to better myself. I hate it when people comment (and they only comment when I'm losing, everyone keeps their mouths shut when I gain and gain and gain and gain).

But fuck them. It isn't their fault. It's my problem, my addiction. And I'm breaking up with these issues. Now. Not tomorrow. Today. And forever.

Never. Again.

That's my resolution.

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Date:2010-11-04 02:30
Subject:I guess I should post...

My life has been really...boring. Which is good. It's full of work (ok, so what else is new?) and more work and videogames and such and not really worth rambling on about I guess (I already ramble enough in my writing blog).

So um... new with me. I'm finally making an honest to god effort to not be fat anymore (again, sigh, you'd think losing 90lbs once would have been enough, but apparently it was so much fun I want to have to do it again. I love eating disorders. Really). I've decided to learn to cook better and to actually eat vegetables, which means my poor husband will be forced to eat them, too. He'll live.

That's about it. Playing Borderlands, reading far too many books (I got a Kindle! I feel like I'm cheating on paper books somehow), and working. Oh, and walking. Lots and lots of walking since this Fall has been particularly lovely and I'm too fat to do much else.

Soon I will add rock climbing, regular weight lifting, and regular harp playing to the list of stuff I'm going to do more of. You know, in March or so when I've got these novels done and hopefully the first 30-40lbs off.

The writer's life is all glam. Yep.

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Date:2010-08-07 03:21
Subject:Sold Another Story

Sold another story. For monies. Maybe the first time wasn't a fluke :)

Details are: Sold "No Spaceships Go" to Daily Science Fiction, a new market that pays professional rates. Website is here: http://dailysciencefiction.com/

So yeah, happy dance.

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Date:2010-05-12 18:43
Subject:Happy Birthday to Me

29 today. Wee.

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Date:2010-02-11 14:24
Subject:Telling the Internet!

My first published story is up at AlienSkin Magazine: http://www.alienskinmag.com/flash11.htm

Go. Read!

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Date:2010-01-14 09:21

Life hates me.

That is all.

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Date:2010-01-01 21:55
Subject:No, There Is Too Much, Let Me Sum Up

People seem to be doing "The last ten years" sort of posts. I've been thinking about it all day. A ton of life has happened, as I guess it should have in ten years.

Ten years ago I was living with Mausi, broke, single, and in college at PSU. And I was still driving the Toad.
Since then I've been in 3 long-term relationships, moved to Kentucky, moved back to Oregon, moved to Eugene, moved back home, traveled to Europe (and a lot of other places), bought three cars, lost a family member, got married, fell in love twice, attempted suicide twice, gained 5 nieces, made a few new friends, lost other friends, got 5 stitches, and finally! managed to graduate college, then get into an MFA program and also drop out of one. Also, wrote two novels, and sold a short story. And dyed my hair, often.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm forgetting things. Oh well.

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Date:2010-01-01 04:36
Subject:Reading Goals

Well, for 2009, I read about 170 books. Which falls short of my goal of 200 books by a bit. Sigh.

For 2010, I think I'm going to put my goal at 150 since I've got so much other stuff to do also. I can hit 150 without too much trouble I think.

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Date:2009-12-29 23:54
Subject:For Those Who Read This

And not my other, writing related blog-

I sold a story. :)

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Date:2009-12-23 01:01
Subject:Resolutions for the New Year

This will be a very short post, because there's really only one thing in my power that I want that isn't writing-related (those resolutions are already up at my other blog).

1. a)lose weight (60-70lbs would be ideal)
b)get back in shape

Sure, it's a two parter, but both can (and should) be done at the same time. So that's it.

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Date:2009-11-30 16:40
Subject:Questions from Ursula

1) Suppose you were cursed so that the Internet could give you porn or kitten pictures, but not both. Which would you choose?

Porn with kittens? *grin* I'm going to take porn here to mean "erotica" because I don't actually use the net to find picture porn unless I'm trying to hurt someone's brain, but I do read a lot of online romance/erotica, so since I can get my kitten fix in real life, I'm picking pr0n here.

2) If you had a free trip to any country in Africa, where would you go?

Madagascar. I've always wanted to go. Places that evolve their own weird ecology are fascinating to me.

3) Would you rather live in a land of Starbucks clones, or doughnut stores (assuming the climate and so forth was otherwise the same)?

Starbucks. I'm not actually that fond of donuts. But in the end, since I barely leave the house anymore, I don't really have an opinion on what's around me as long as there are still bookstores :) Speaking of which, I should totally figure out how to get starbucks to sell my books ;)

4) What do you buy in airport bookstores?

Spy thrillers, generally, if anything. I'm usually traveling with so many books that I don't really make it to the airport bookstores, but I've purchased a few (bookstores cannot resist me.. or is it the other way around?)

5) What are the characteristics of your ideal video game?

No level cap. Epic feel, lots of side quests, plenty of story and possibility for character development, and pretty graphics. Basically, cross Fallout 2 with Final Fantasy 12 and maybe we'll be close. I think it's why Dark Age of Camelot drew me for so many years, it had a lot of these qualities and I loved the scope that was provided by the MMORPG setting. But of course it had flaws too. I'd also love to see an epic fantasy game like Dragon Age or Final Fantasy 12 with a seamless 2 player cooperative option.

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Date:2009-10-23 19:21
Subject:Another Tiny Update

I'm back on anti-depressants for a little while it seems. And I was doing so well, heh. I guess managing this on my own for nearly five years is somewhat of a win. Hopefully I won't need the drugs for more than a couple months. Maybe just something to get me through the holidays, I don't know.

Anyway, between gearing up for NaShoWriMo and various other work related to my "dayjob", I've been fairly busy. Muddling along.

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